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oh my god hello how are you welcome to my aquarium

Wed, 22 May 2013 20:09:55 +0100

oh my god hello how are you welcome to my aquarium

shooting-up-pie-in-the-sky: foodchewer: hides good snacks from family members *purposely buys...

Wed, 22 May 2013 19:51:05 +0100

shooting-up-pie-in-the-sky:

foodchewer:

*hides good snacks from family members*

*purposely buys snacks that no one else in family likes*

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Tue, 21 May 2013 19:55:57 +0100

Strawberry Tea Kimie’s P.O.V. Maths…maths…Ugh. It was 11o’clock and I was still trying to...

Sun, 19 May 2013 20:52:00 +0100

Strawberry Tea

Kimie’s P.O.V.

Maths…maths…Ugh.

It was 11o’clock and I was still trying to revise maths. What was wrong with me?

I guess it’s just as good as working to take my mind off of things. Tonight was my night off so since exams were coming up I had to revise. I just wish it wasn’t so hard. Why couldn’t maths solve its own problems when mine were so much worse?

When the letters and numbers started to blur, I decided it was time to stop. Time for bed.

I changed into my jammies and was about to climb into bed, ready to sleep but I heard a knock on the door. Automatically, my heart stepped up the pace. I grabbed an old baseball bat I had harvested from Riko’s wardrobe a while back and got my dressing gown on, ready to face whoever was at the door.

The knocker repeated himself, the banging sounding very irregular. When I opened the door with the bolted gap, to my surprise, Yuuma was on the other side. My bat was still held in my hand, ready to swing in case of any danger. I made sure that it was hidden behind the door though.

Yuuma did not look good. Every time I saw him, he looked worse. His eyes were sunken, dark and half bloodshot, dark hair messy and pushed back. He looked soaked, wearing a white – now see through- blouse and his skinny tie, a dark waste coat revealing it.

“Hey there beautiful.” He smiled gently. My nose turned up, smelling alcohol on his breath.

“Yuuma, what do you want?”

“I’m sorry.”

“What do you want?”

“I wanted you see you.”

“Why?”

“I love you, that’s why. I miss you and I wanted to see you.” His eyes took in what I was wearing and I tried to ignore pulling my gown tighter. He wasn’t going to hurt me.

“You were in bed?”

“I was about be, yeah.”

He nodded.

“Can I come in?”

I swallowed.

“Yuuma, I don’t-“My voice started.

“No, no, you’re right. Of course. I’m sorry. Sorry to bother you.”

It seemed like he was conflicted about walking off but he did it none the less. His walk was more of a waddle away when he moved.
How did he feel when I rejected him? I wondered. What is he going to do when he gets home? He needs me…

I quickly fiddled with the lock and dashed out into the hall, throwing the bat down so that it rested against the wall.

“Yuuma?” I called after him. “You can come in, if you really want.”

He moved so that one hand was leaning on the wall next to him as he looked around.

“Really?”

“Yeah. C’mon.”

The look on his face now was full of wonder, happiness and almost relief as he walked back to me. Yuuma still used the wall as support to walk back, hoping that he wouldn’t fall over.

When I waited for him inside, he did remind me of a child. Maybe it was the alcohol. He waited at the edge of the open door until he felt it was right to cross the line between the door and hallway, letting out a playful smile as he came in. His feet spun him around in a quick circle in triumph.

“I’m in.” He announced, grinning. I nodded.

“Sit. I’ll make you a drink. Tea okay?”

“I’m allowed a drink?”

His response was a little odd to me so it was a moment before I could reply.

“Of course.”

“I would love some tea.” The words burst out of his mouth excited.

“Okay.” I made some instant tea from some of the strawberry tea bags that I had in the cupboard. I seem remember that he liked it before.

“Here.”

“Thank you.” He murmured, more concentrating on taking the tea from me than the words he was speaking. Yuuma’s slender fingers curled around the cup, and he began to gulp from the cup until none of it was left.

“That’s pretty hot.” I warned him as he started to sip but he didn’t heed my warning. His breath was visible when he exhaled.

I let out a small chuckle. “Would you like some more? You seem pretty thirsty.”

“Am I allowed more?” He asked, his cup still held to him close like a small token.

“Of course you are.”

“Please.”

When I made him the tea, he didn’t drink it as fast as before. He breathed in the hot scent, almost losing himself in the aroma. I retrieved a towel from the dryer and plonked it on his head. When I did it, he didn’t seem to notice so I slowly started to dry his wet hair. Yuuma was shivering too. Maybe Tanji has some clothes he could borrow when he gets back.

“This tea reminds me of you. It smells sweet and delicious…”

“I’m glad you like it.”

“Do you drink it?”

“Some times. Only when I’m cold.”

“Are you cold?”

I shrugged.

“Would you like some of mine?”

“It’s your tea, I wouldn’t want to take it away from you.”

“You can have a sip. You made it for me.”

He held up the cup to me. Wrapping my hands around his cold ones, I moved gently so I could take a small sip. I didn’t want to refuse his kind offer. I didn’t know how he would react if I did. His eyes seemed to be stuck to my lips as I tasted the tea so my cheeks went a little red.

“Just as tasty as I remembered.” That was all I could think of to say.

“Mhmm..” Yuuma moved the cup around so that he could sip where my lips were and he closed his eyes again.
I was satisfied with how dry his hair was, now just damp rather than dripping but his clothes were still pretty wet.
“You really are soaking. Didn’t you have a coat to wear?”
“I couldn’t remember where it was. I’m sorry.”
“Stop apologizing. It’s okay. Do you want me to find some clothes?”
“No. You’ve already gone to so much trouble.”
“I don’t mind.”
I got to my feet and started to walk but I heard Yuuma call behind me. When I turned, he was already up ready to walk after me so I stopped until he was with me.
He didn’t get that far. His face went ghostly white and his legs gave out, him falling forward. I jumped forward, hoping to try and catch him only he was too heavy. I landed under him but his weight didn’t crush me like I expected it too.
The cup broke into tiny pieces to the left of me, spilling hot tea over the carpet.
Before I could check if Yuuma was okay, my mind triggered and I gasped, images behind my eyelids flashing of that memory.
Calm…
I tried to steady my heart beat, my eyes tightly closed. It was a normal reaction if I’m honest. I mean, how many people wouldn’t react like that if they were nearly…
A small drop was felt on my cheek which ran down my face. I managed to open my eyes to find Yuuma above me. His hands were on either side, leaning over me. I assumed it was for him to check if I was okay but I could tell what was going through his head. I wasn’t a mind reader.
It was his watering eyes that gave it away.
“Yuuma.”
He yelped, forcing his body back.
“I’m sorry! I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to faint and break the cup! I’m sorry! Ahh!”
Hands were clamped over his head, eyes wide and teary, trying not to cry but failing ever so. His breathing was rapid and my mind called it a panic attack. I didn’t know what to do. I’ve had one before but I didn’t know what to do if another person had one.
“It was an accident, please! Please don’t make me leave! I’m sorry!”
“Yuuma, its okay.” I forced myself to sit up properly. “You just got up a little too fast, that’s all.”
He just shook his head, continuing with his breakdown.
Is this what is like for Yuuma? Every day, so afraid of making mistakes? Is his really so guilt ridden?
Of course he is, my mind countered, He thinks he raped you. I bet he isn’t eating or sleeping. You know he isn’t going to last like this.
I’ve told him what actually happened though. He won’t believe me, if I tell him again; just like last time.
It’s kind of obvious he won’t believe you. Besides, imagine what the others did to him when they found out? Riko hates his guts. I bet he really killed him when he was downstairs.

While I was trying to figure out what to do with Yuuma, he was still sobbing in front of me. We were both lost in our minds. Afraid. Confused. Alone.
I heard the door click and Tanji and Riko came in, bags in hand. They were back from their shift and with shopping. Tanji was shocked. Riko was frowning, his fists ready to sort out the problem.
I shook my head and for some reason, a smile came across my lips. “Hi.”
Tanji dumped his stuff down and came over. “Hi? What’s going on?”
Yuuma jumped and grabbed hold of Tanji, his eyes still streaming.
“Please don’t make me leave! I didn’t do anything, I promise. I just wanted to have some tea and I fell and broke the cup with the tea in but I didn’t mean to do it and-“
The words he continued to say weren’t understandable anymore. The only thing I heard was, “I just don’t want to be alone.”
“It’s true.” I added quickly.
“I didn’t doubt it. It just seemed…weird.”
“He’s a bit drunk and emotional.”
“I’m going to bed.” Riko announced. I was glad of that. I didn’t want him involved. He wasn’t any help.
“Yuuma?”
“Y-yeah?” He sniffled.
“When was the last time you slept?” Tanji asked, grabbing the towel and rubbing his face down. When Tanji had finished, Yuuma’s features were struggling to think. His tears had stopped but his eyes were still watery.
“I can’t remember.”
“When did you last eat?”
“I had a few burgers last week. Since then, I’ve nibbled.”
“How much alcohol have you had?”
He blinked, still sniffling. “Half a bottle?”
“Whiskey?”
“Yeah.”
“I thought so. We know you don’t get along with whiskey. C’mon.” He took his shoulder and went to pull him up but Yuuma refused.
“Wait! I wanna clean up the cup.”
“I can do that.”
“No, I want to. It’s my fault. It’s my fault, I’ll do it.”
I’m sure he wanted to protest but Yuuma really seemed intent so I found a brush. We both brushed up the broken pieces together, he did the sweeping and I made sure they got onto the dustpan.
I emptied it into the bin as he mopped up the tea with the rest of the towel.
“At least the carpet smells nice now.” I smiled, taking the brush from him. He nodded.
“Hey, its fine. Please don’t worry.” I rested my hand on his cheek, glad he wasn’t that upset anymore. A hand cupped my own and he sighed heavily.
“I have some clothes you can change into.” Tanji spoke behind us.
“its fine, I’ll keep these on.”
“You’re shivering.”
“No I’m not.”
“Please.” Hopefully he would listen to me.
“…But I wore this because you liked it. You said you like my skinny tie.”
“Oh. Yuuma I do. I just don’t want you to be cold.”
He closed his eyes again.
“Please? You can put your tie over those clothes if you want.”
“Can I?” he asked, his emerald eyes opening again.
“Yeah.”
Yuuma trotted off to change with Tanji. I think normally we would of let him change on his own but he was drunk and emotional so we didn’t know what he was gonna do next. I fetched my blanket from my room too, hoping that he wasn’t going to go home. I wanted him here where I could keep an eye on him. At least for tonight.

When they returned, Yuuma was in a pair of regular jeans, a black and white long sleeved shirt. He was also wearing his tie.

“I think its best that you sleep here for tonight Yuuma. You’re in no shape to go home now. I’ll set the couch up for you.”
Yuuma looked like he was going to grumble but he bit his tongue.
“Is that okay?” I asked, as Tanji started to unfold the sofa.
“.. I can’t sleep.”
“I’m sure we have some sleeping pills in the cupboard if you need them.”
“I’ve tried using them. I’ve tried everything but nothing seems to work.” Yuuma avoided my gaze, fiddling with his tie.
“It’s okay sweetie.” I gave his shoulder a squeeze but he still avoided my gaze.
“Yuuma?”
“I’m sorry.”
“its okay.”
“No it isn’t.” He shook his head. “I’ve fucked everything up and I’m such a wreck. I’m making everyone upset because I’m on a downer and I can’t pull myself up. I’m a coward and…”
With his lips pursed, he shut his eyes tightly. My features started to turn down as more tears began to slowly roll down his face. Oh Yuuma..
“I can’t even begin to beg for forgiveness through what I’ve done. It still feels like a nightmare that I can’t escape from. But, I have to say Princess. You’ve been so brave through what I have put you through. I admire you on how strong you are. Beautiful. Brave. I should have let Riko k-“
Suddenly, Yuuma clamped his hands over his mouth and shook his head.
“No no no no.”
I heard Tanji give a dark chuckle behind me.
“Even when your drunk and hit rock bottom, you still can’t give away other people’s dirty secrets.”
“What?”
“It’s nothing.” Yuuma insisted through his hands.
I gave a little sigh through my lips. It’s possible I didn’t want to know what he was going to say so I forced the thought away. Instead, my mind thought of something.
“C’mon. I’ll help you get to sleep.”
“How?”
“We can cuddle.”
Like a while back, all of the sadness on his face floated away and his eyes filled with wonder and now, love.
“Cuddle?”
“Yeah.”
“Am I allowed?” His childish voice asked.
“Of course you are.”
A shy smiled appeared on his face and he moved swiftly, catching me off guard with an embrace. Yuuma wrapped his arms around me and pulled me in tightly, nuzzling into my shoulder.
“Thank you.” He breathed.
Because the gesture caught me of guard, it was a ton of bricks falling onto me when he hugged me. My chest burst with emotion, my own breath catching. I wonder what the cuddling gesture must have meant to him for him to be so overwhelmed. It made me happy to see him grateful for me still trying.
When we pulled away, he grasped my shoulder and pulled me forward.
“I mean it. Thank you.” Lips pressed against my forehead, my chest burst and fluttered again.
“You’re welcome.”

"Maybe if your dick was thicker than your goddamn eyebrows we wouldn’t be having this conversation"

Sun, 19 May 2013 20:50:20 +0100

“Maybe if your dick was thicker than your goddamn eyebrows we wouldn’t be having this conversation”

- Gay couple arguing outside Walmart (via dacelio)

Okay. Okay change of plan. For posting Strawberry Tea, i shall post all of the comics when my tablet...

Sun, 19 May 2013 20:02:49 +0100

Okay. Okay change of plan. For posting Strawberry Tea, i shall post all of the comics when my tablet is working again. the pressure sensitivity is messed up atm (it does this randomly)
In the mean time, i might as well most the written part. I find its better anyway. More added than what i could put in the comic.
so.. i’ll upload that after i quickly finish…

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Sun, 19 May 2013 18:46:53 +0100

Omg i’m freaking out about JT again and its not fun ahhhh sobs//

Sun, 19 May 2013 18:34:42 +0100

Omg i’m freaking out about JT again and its not fun ahhhh sobs//

thewalkingassbutt: pumpkin-ple-motherfckers: fuckyoutomhiddleston: If yahoo does end up buying...

Sun, 19 May 2013 15:21:53 +0100

thewalkingassbutt:

pumpkin-ple-motherfckers:

fuckyoutomhiddleston:

If yahoo does end up buying tumblr and shuts it down

I just wanted everyone to know that

you’ve all been truly wonderful people

and

it was an honor blogging with you all

I truly love all of you and will miss you all

it’s been a pleasure

ahhh… do i post the comic now or make the otherss or just post together. mhmmmmmmmmmmm

Sun, 19 May 2013 11:48:43 +0100

ahhh… do i post the comic now or make the otherss
or just post together. mhmmmmmmmmmmm

I AM DRAWING I SWEAR// SCREECHESWorking on a small depressing...

Sat, 18 May 2013 20:32:52 +0100

I AM DRAWING I SWEAR// SCREECHES

Working on a small ~~depressing~~ comic called Strawberry Tea. Might be two parts depending on how long i make it.

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Sat, 18 May 2013 20:27:17 +0100

#best reaction to zombies ever

Sat, 18 May 2013 20:13:17 +0100

#best reaction to zombies ever

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Sat, 18 May 2013 15:32:34 +0100

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Sat, 18 May 2013 14:00:54 +0100

carryonwinchestering: so-relatable: Yahoo is trying to buy...

Sat, 18 May 2013 13:46:45 +0100

carryonwinchestering:

so-relatable:

Yahoo is trying to buy tumblr. Reblog if you are against this!

You’re kidding right? There would we adverts EVERYWHERE. They’d probably monitor it too!

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Sat, 18 May 2013 10:34:14 +0100

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Sat, 18 May 2013 09:38:58 +0100

I need a place to crash.

Fri, 17 May 2013 21:36:22 +0100

thetrolliestcritic:

This is a little personal, but if someone could help me that’d be super great.

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jeanvaljeanralphio: The next time you feel down, just remember that Bruce Banner tried to kill...

Fri, 17 May 2013 21:27:15 +0100

jeanvaljeanralphio:

The next time you feel down, just remember that Bruce Banner tried to kill himself and Tony Stark has anxiety attacks, and they’ve both saved the world. You will be okay.

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oh my god hello how are you welcome to my aquarium

shooting-up-pie-in-the-sky: foodchewer: *hides good snacks from family members* *purposely buys...

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Strawberry Tea Kimie’s P.O.V. Maths…maths…Ugh. It was 11o’clock and I was still trying to...

"Maybe if your dick was thicker than your goddamn eyebrows we wouldn’t be having this conversation"

Okay. Okay change of plan. For posting Strawberry Tea, i shall post all of the comics when my tablet...

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Omg i’m freaking out about JT again and its not fun ahhhh sobs//

thewalkingassbutt: pumpkin-ple-motherfckers: fuckyoutomhiddleston: If yahoo does end up buying...

ahhh… do i post the comic now or make the otherss or just post together. mhmmmmmmmmmmm

I AM DRAWING I SWEAR// SCREECHESWorking on a small depressing...

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#best reaction to zombies ever

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carryonwinchestering: so-relatable: Yahoo is trying to buy...

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I need a place to crash.

jeanvaljeanralphio: The next time you feel down, just remember that Bruce Banner tried to kill...

shooting-up-pie-in-the-sky: foodchewer: hides good snacks from family members *purposely buys...